"10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried."
This is a post i copied from somewhere else... How true of it, how true.. so guys, don't be a coward... speak up!! This..... relates a bit to me.... the difference is she is still alive...
*sigh*
*SIGH*
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7 wise teachings:
January 8, 2009 at 9:40 AM
hey brother,c'mon,you're a guy,you should do your part no matter how shy you are.if you like her,then tell her,no matter what's her response,at least you let her know you like her.even if she likes you,she won't come up and say 'i like you',not until you do it. have a deep thought.you won't want to regret.
January 8, 2009 at 6:59 PM
... ...is it real??
January 8, 2009 at 7:14 PM
yanyan : well.. i just don't know how to say it larh.. so afraid of rejection.. haiz.. but anywayz, thx for the suggest o!! ^^
Spiral Riynn : yeah, its so damn true...
January 8, 2009 at 9:24 PM
i thought tat guy is u...
o nevermind.
so...is she from our class?
hehe, so mysterios = =
January 8, 2009 at 11:17 PM
Nate River : Nah.. She's not from our class.. Do I look like i'd like sum1 from our class?? haha!
January 10, 2009 at 12:50 AM
i know u guys have this problem(afraid of rejection) cz my frens have the same prob too.but if u don't say it,you'll never know how she feels.maybe she's just waiting you to move on.you can try to ask her out,just 2 of you.if she agree to go with you,i can tell,she has good feelings towards you too!really!
January 10, 2009 at 5:36 AM
yanyan: just the two of us together? We've tried it once lar.. but i don't know whether she likes me or not.. is it real that if she goes out with me alone then she'll like? i don't know lar.. i just hope to have a sweet experience.. but my mind tells me that this is not the time to have these kind of relationship yet. i know very well that i'm really not matured for this yet. I have to have a certain sense of responsibility which I don't have now.
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