Luahan Hati hok Suci

Its been a while since I threw everything out from my heart's deepest core. Trash has accumulated alongside jewellery and fine dinings. Its about time I spit them all out and start refreshed, renewed.
These two weeks are holidays for me, so I kinda felt lazy and useless. So, I put myself to use. How? Mind you, I really picked up a book, okay? But my eyes just cannot go thru 3pages of stuff! I really hate that feeling. I was so darn active and I really had the desire to get my hands and eyes to feast on REVISION BOOKS when I was in camp. But now, I seemed to be utterly tired of those. How could those motivating desires be retrenched that easily? I can't understand myself. Alright, then, there is this......female. Argh, I don't wanna talk about it actually, but since this is what I want to get out of my mind, I will just vomit it out. There's this girl, younger by 2 years. What I know is that she has an affection for me, and I do have *read: a bit* feelings for her. So my friend told me : JUST GO GET IT LARH, WAIT FOR WHAT?? Well, I just feel that I'm not prepared to get involved in any relationships yet, so I won't do anything about it. So, isn't this the best way to do it? He suggested: THEN IF U WAIT TOO LATE SHE RUNNNNN AWAY LIAO, HOW LEH?? Haha, well dude........I DONT GIVE A DAMN!!!!C'mon, I'm not a freakin emo' anymore k.. I'm a guy and G-U-Y spells me when I walk on the streets. I don't look for pennies anymore when I take strolls. I don't keep long hair anymore. I don't act soft anymore. I walk straight up. I look front. My breasts are open wide, who am I to be afraid of?! C'mon dudes, face it, girls love guys who have a high level of virility, and not those sissy ones. You may be a pretty boy, and some girls may like you, but hey, chicks search for Hulks ok? Face it. Good boys are losers, face it too! But that doesn't mean that the bolds get green lights to have one night stands, no. We ALL still play by one natural rule, that is with the mathematical function one-to-one. Not one-to-many. And then... About my driving. Awful. I haven't been driving for a while, and my skills have seemed to just fly away. I can't control myself anymore and I tend to instill fear among drivers. XD but well, nevermind, I have my "P" on, so I'm defintely forgiven, thanks.... And..... I just hope I can continue but I can't. My eyes are near the keyboard, and I know that I have to hit the pillow. So, arrivederci!