Insights of me

I've been wondering to myself all this time: " What am I doing now " and " Whatever I see around me, is its existence real, or virtual? " 

Throughout my 17 years and 2 months of life, I've been wondering already. These 2 questions have been bugging me and if you have seen my older posts, you will probably know what I'm talking about. I mean, what you see in front of you now, is a computer. But to me, that's only what the brain interprets. This is only what the mind of ours, interpret. A computer. But is it really there? Are we living in a dream? We do not know of its true material. What we see and what we claim as true and evident is only what we universally see as a similar thing. And most of you may know that universal agreement doesn't have to prove to be the correct phenomena. For example, you may see red. The colour red. So, this is what you interpret as red and what others interpret as red too. So you may claim that You are right. Even I don't dare to claim it blue if what you and I saw agree on is red. But, maybe there is no such thing as red? Maybe it doesn't even exist? Maybe the colour red is not even red at all? After all its just a name...? So who are we to confirm that the colour you see is red? Well, 99% of the people will certainly confirm that it is red that you see, but as I said earlier on, universal agreement doesn't have to prove itself to be the actual situation. 

And what I've been thinking all this while is that Am I Living? I could still be in my mother's womb? Or somewhere else where I don't know of? Perhaps, I'm still a spirit? And if I'm a spirit, then everyone else is, too? How sure can I be? I don't dare to even think of it. I can't be sure that I'm existent on this planet. I can't be sure that whatever is walking past me and talking and screaming and wailing and yelling, is existent. Perhaps we are living in a world of an extra dimension? Perhaps all this is happening in a dream? We could have been dead a long time ago, and now reliving the past, over and over again? This is what I've been thinking. I cannot be sure that man is existent or not. True what you say if you can feel people you can communicate with them you can have whatever interaction you want with another human being but hey, don't forget, are they human beings you are talking to? Can't they be just memories which just can't be wiped? Can't you, be a part of memory of some one else? I may be in a state of craziness, but what I'm saying here is that we are not sure of what we are and are not sure of what is happening. Nothing on this world is 100% sure. Nothing. I stress it here, Nothing. There is no decision on this so called Earth that is 100% correct or 100% wrong. If you have been reading my older posts, maybe you will catch what I'm saying. If there is such thing as 100% correct, then there would be no accidents happening at all. Or maybe if there was such thing as 100% wrong, then accidents will happen to everyone all the time. So since nothing in the world is a-hundred-percent confirmed, can you be SURE that you are living now? Can you be SURE that you are breathing, alive in a dimension where an infinite number of people share? The decision is up to you to make. You can agree with me or also disagree with me for I have said myself, nothing is a-hundred-percent confirmed. I cannot be sure myself that I'm alive this moment. I cannot be sure that I'm breathing air this moment. I may have died? I may have gone to the skies? I may have not been born yet. Who am I to decide? 

Another question I ponder is this: Am I Seeing What I'm Seeing? This is a question which I find it hard to explain in words. Its even harder to explain by tying it out. So, I'll just try my best. Ever since I was a child, I was amazed by the fact that I can see. I can see with my eyes. I was truly amazed by that basic fact. I found it interesting to see things with my eyes. And when I looked at something for a long time, I began thinking to myself: How is it that I can see? I know, the answers given should be something like the light reflected by objects go through the pupils and hit the rectina or something like that. Well, I'm not talking about the science facts. I mean, God, is really great. He can make us see things, and then interpret what it is. That is why I'm truly amazed by the fact that I can actually see. You can try it out yourself by looking at an object, and then start wondering the amazing thing about being able to see things. I was truly take aback. I still am.